Zebastian,

You’re asleep right now next to me and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’ve been with you for the summer and it’s been really cool, I’ve been telling mommy that we have a bond that I can’t put into words and a love for one another that I feel only a father and son can have. 

Tomorrow is your 1st birthday and it’s huge. You were born last year and we couldn’t believe it. I have been super emo thinking about the last year with you in my life. I love taking naps with you and love watching you wake up. It’s pretty funny and sometimes I can’t even tell if your eyes are open or closed because they’re so small. 

You have changed my life and have made mommy and I very proud parents. I hope you feel the love and know that you have 2 people who love you and will do whatever we can to provide for you. 

I still remember when you took your first breath, when they were washing you off and they showed you to mommy to when you held my finger. Z you were so tiny at 3lbs 13oz I was holding back tears because I had to be strong and didn’t want to be a cry baby but this whole experience has been a roller coaster of emotions because you don’t speak yet and we have non verbal communication which is what every baby and parents go through so it’s all good. So many good memories and pictures that we will share with you. 

I’m out papa, I gotta go and get a coffee and a snack before you wake up. 

I love you my little angel. 

Love,

Daddy