GG,

It’s almost midnight and you are almost here. I haven’t wrote you or written anything down because it’s been crazy and I’ve been scared. Your mommy is strong and is doing her best to make sure that when you come that you are as developed as possible.

Right now your brother Zebastian is asleep with mommy in our bed. We have a nursery that’s gonna be complete in less then a week and this is out last week with your brother being our only baby. I see your brother and sometimes I cry because I love him so much and it’s gonna be different with you coming into our world. When I mean it’s gonna be different I mean it in a good way.

I’m gonna go back and forth and try and fill you in whenever I remember things. First of all your brother thought you were going to be a boy and I did too but something said no it’s gonna be a girl. We were gonna do a gender reveal party thing but I think they are dumb so I was like nah I’m Koo off of that. Mommy came home with a ballon one day and we were gonna pop it. I closed my eyes and your brother and I popped it. When I opened them I saw pink and cried a little bit, I wanted a boy for Z but then I grabbed Z holding back tears and told him he’s gonna have to take care of his little sister and he said okay daddy.

GG you have a brother who absolutely loves you and has been a great big brother to you already. I know you will love him because he loves you.

As your Daddy I am scared because I know nothing about girls hair, dressing you, changing you and all that stuff but I am excited for the challenge and opportunity. I’m excited for being a girl dad and for you to be able to teach me things. I am scared about one day having to walk you down the aisle but I am also excited for our Father/ Daughter dance in school one day. I will play dress up with you and play dolls go to tea parties with you and anything else you want to do. I hope you look like your mom too!! I have a mini me in Zebastian already.

Z,

I love you so much and I really hope you feel it. I swear you are my best friend and I’m so happy you are my son and God chose me to be your Daddy. You love the ocean, walks/hikes, playing baseball which you are really good at!! You have some amazing hand eye coordination already and you get mad like me when I played sports. You love dinosaurs and Godzilla, we have daily battles with your toys and I think that we use that time to play with one another and I appreciate you and your innocents. I love you papa and thank you for showing me unconditional love and making me a better man.

BTW you said your first MF at home one day randomly and then you said it to Tio Mario. I laughed and was proud but was like damn I really can’t say anything in front of you. I will take all the credit for your bad language at 4 years old!

Anyways it’s late and I’m gonna go to bed! Tia Diana aka Baby D had her graduation party today and I took a nap from being so full. This is our last week as a family of 3 so I’m gonna be extra emotional and loving with you.

Gabby “ I’m tired” not gonna miss you saying that lol but you have been amazing and extremely strong this go around. You have done so much and are so super amazing! I love you with all my heart and appreciate everything you have done because you look good and have kicked ass this pregnancy!! I will continue to try and be patient and not complain. 😍

Good night the 3 of you. I love you all and GG welcome to the familia!

Love,

Daddy