Papa,

It’s been a while so let me back track.
On January 29 we lost my Tio Robert. He was a unique individual and had a hard life but he loved his family. I learned a lot from him, mostly what not to do and what not to be like but he knew that. My Tio would take care of me when I was a baby and take me to go play at the park and just be there whenever my mom needed him. I would always say that he was my favorite Tio because of that and because he spent so much time with me. I would go and visit him when he was at the farm or give him clothes/ he would take. I learned from my mom what unconditional love is with him. Grandma loves her family especially her brothers and sisters and wouldn’t turn her back on them no matter what. My Tio was loved by many and had a smile on him that would make others smile, he would always say chagito reyes should have been a boxer or call me bad names that I will tell you when you are older.

He had a good funeral and it gave the family an opportunity to see you and finally meet you.
I want you to know that I will always love you and show you unconditional love just like grandma has shown me. You can do whatever you want as long as you put your mind to it.

Hi Zebastian,
Just wanted to check in real quick and keep you updated. One day you will look back at this and hopefully feel the love that we have for you. Everyone is in love with you, we jump at your cough, cry or laugh. You are growing so quickly it’s seriously insane. Tomorrow  (sunday) we are taking you to church with us, I’m hoping you will either be asleep or be a good boy. We’re also going to watch football, I don’t really care who wins but I’d be
happy for Peyton Manning to go to the Superbowl and I’ll go for Carolina as well, hopefully the games will be good. You’re sleeping right next to me so I’m gonna crash out too. I guess what I’m trying to say in all of this is that I love you, we love you and we want for you to be our baby forever.

I’m out Z I’m tired and ain’t making sense.
Love,
Daddy

Hi Papa,
I have a confession, before you were born I would say that you were not going to sleep with us and that you weren’t going to be held and all this other crap. That didn’t even last a day, the first day that we brought you home you slept with us and have slept with us ever since, you are held all day every day, you have a chupon which we are going to get rid of after you are done teething.
I talked to your tia Tina and she asked how you were doing and all that and I said he’s growing fast and sleeping with us etc. Tina was like what?!?!?! He still sleeps with yall and I said yes!! I’m not ready for you to sleep away from us. You sleep a good 10 hours now and I love it since we don’t have to wake up and do a feeding in the middle of the night. I guess I’m trying to say that we love everything about you and are going to struggle with letting you grow up because you are our baby and we only have this time with you for a short time.
I love you papa!! Time to eat, I’ll write you again soon.
BTW you are starting to look like me more and more and mommy is finally accepting it. TQM Zebastian

Love,
Daddy

Hi Zebastian,
It’s Sunday and my birthday weekend is coming to an end. Previous birthdays I would be recovering from nights out drinking with mommy and friends. This weekend was very relaxing, I took Friday off for my actual birthday as we were supposed to go to Napa for some wine tasting as we have never been. I knew it wasn’t looking good as your cough and runny nose was getting worse. I took care of you on my birthday, feed you, played with you and changed your diapers. This was fun and relaxing to me and I would not have wanted it any other way. A lot of people would always say that life changes when you have a child and I do agree but I was ready for you and I was ready to give up on things so that I could be with you and mommy. You are loved by so many people and spoiled by the family. I think you are starting to look like me but idk cuz mommy always be hating on me but it’s all good, as long as you are healthy and smiling it’s all good with me 
I’m gonna get ready to shower up and get my stuff together so I can get up and go tomorrow for work. I love you very much and I wish I could hold you in my arms forever because you are so cute and precious to mommy and I.

Love Daddy

Hi Papa,
We’ll today was a big day! Today Ken Griffey Jr was elected to the baseball hall of fame with a 99.3% approval, he received 437/440 votes so F those 3 people that didn’t vote for him.
The Kid as he is known was a bad bad dude, your grandpa bought me his cleates and was a great example to everyone playing baseball.
The reason why I’m writing you about him is because he is someone that I looked up to like many athletes I feel special and honored to have been able to see them play in person or on TV I will share those memories with you and hopefully you will have the same experience one day with athletes as well.
Right now you’re asleep, you have a cough/cold and today is mommy reynas birthday in addition to dia de Los reyes. Last year I got the monito and then you came:) I don’t want another baby right now cuz idk if I’m ready to share my attention with someone else.

I love you papa, I’m gonna a join you right now and go to sleep cuz Daddy is ty ty.

Love you,
Daddy

Hi Z,

Damn this sucks. Being with you for 2 weeks was fun and I enjoyed every minute, feeding, diaper change, cry and nap that we had together. I’m back at work now and I know it’s gonna suck because I’m so used to spending time with you. I have to work though it’s part of life, it’s a bitch but hey I got a baby and a wife that I gotta look after so it’s all good. I’m writing you now to tell you that I miss you, I love you and I can’t wait to see you again this evening. Be good to grandma and grandpa.

Love Daddy

Hi Z,

You had your first Christmas and it was my best Christmas in years. We had you with the family in Salinas where we opened gifts, took pictures and dressed you up as santa. We spent Christmas day in the 209 with your grandma and grandpa and tia Lolie. You’re so spoiled and loved by everyone back home papa it’s insane. We opened gifts at grandma’s at lunch and then went to meet my tias at Lolies house where grandpa was smiling ear to ear showing you off. Everyone said you looked like me probably because of your eyes but I’ll take it.

We then stayed the night at the Hilton and stayed in a King size bed in which I’m trying to convince mommy that we need one since she wants you to sleep in our bed until your 6 years old lol. We both slept good and our getting better at feeding you in the middle of the night.
We woke up and had posole at Lolies with grandma and then took off to see everyone else. You got to meet baby Victor who is gonna be your little homie when yall are bigger, we dropped off gifts to Brayden and Brookie then went to kick it with grandpa and then finished up our visits with visiting your tia Kara, Frankie, Babs, Matt and Frank the tank. I could tell that they loved you which makes me smile. They also got you gifts too so when you get older you gotta say thank you to them for everything.

This holiday season has taught stuff I already knew but made it more evident that the real gift you can give someone is your attention and love. Having material shit is nice but all of that don’t mean nothing unless you appreciate the time and effort that was put in giving you or I or anyone a gift.

You’re waking up now so I gotta go. I love you my papa!!

Daddy

Hi Z,

I’m feeling a little sad because I’m not gonna see you or hold you for two days!!!! I’m going to Tahoe with the guys for Rafas 30th birthday, his birthday is really next weekend but we are celebrating this weekend. Mama and I meet when we all went out for his birthday 6 years ago.
Anyhow papa I just wanna let you know that it’s not easy for me and I miss you like crazy even when I’m just at work or running errands. I took some pictures of you and your just amazing.
I’m not really making sense because I’m tired but Daddy loves you and wishes he could have you right here next to him, one day you will be with us on the slopes going crazy like me.

Love you,
Daddy

That smile kills me

Papa,
It’s a sad day. KOBE the man the myth the legend is gonna retire from the NBA. He’s one of the best to ever play the game. Mama and I got married on the 24th because of Kobe. If we ever have a dog we will name him Kobe or Otis. Just a sad day for me.
You’re doing great right now. You might be teething because you’re playing with your hands a lot and not sleeping like you have.
Gonna shower and get ready for bed. Love you with all my heart papa.

Daddy

You’re mom loves those shoes.

Hi Papa,

You are crashed out in your swing, you watched Bobby’s World from back in the 90’s on OnDemand (comcast; I wonder if it will be around when you get older) Anyways you’re sleeping like a little tiny baby.
Last night mama and I went to the Fox Theatre to see Zoé and Cafe Tacuba in Oakland and it was really cool!!! I like you enjoyed the lights and the music. We got tickets to the telegraph room which was cool because we had out own bar,bathroom, snacks and coat check in. I was a little buzzed and your mama was turnt 100 but that’s why I love her.
Eres is a song that was once dedicated to me by your mom and we still dedicate to one another. Now you are what we breath and you are the reason we wake up everyday now tu eres el mas que quiero en este mundo (lyrics are prolly wrong but you get what I’m saying)Mama cried and cried cuz she missed you, I missed you too!!! You are loved papa and are spoiled/chikado but best believe Daddy gonna make you work and appreciate everything you will get cuz Daddy worked hard for his sh!%+.
Papa I gotta go get a bottle ready for you soon. Today Canelo is fighting Cotto. Going for Canelo.

Love you,

Daddy