I didn’t know what to expect when I became a daddy to Z. I knew my role as a husband and now as a father was to be a provider and take care of my wife and son.
I feel like I have a best friend who does not talk yet, you smile for me, cry when you need a bottle or be changed. The best part of my day is waking up to you even though you’re asleep I still get to give you kisses and bless you. I come home from work and check on you immediately. I can honestly say that nothing else is important to me other than you and mommy.
I’m not missing anything, I’m in love with my son Z and really want to teach you how to ride a bike, kick a ball or anything that you wanna do.
I’m so proud of you and mommy and can’t stop smiling because you make me feel so proud to be a daddy to you. I hope you feel the love that we all have for you and continue to grow everyday.

Man I never posted this so it’s late but it’s all good.

Hi papa,

It’s Tuesday night around 10:45 pm. I’m waiting for you to wake up so that I  can feed you. Mama is sleeping next to you in our bed. I didn’t want you to sleep with us in the beginning but that changed the first night you came home, don’t get used to it because I will kick your butt to your room 😉 I prolly won’t but don’t get too used to it.
Right now you are 3 months old and are doing great. Mama and I love you very much. We have gone to the 209 a few times already and you do really well on the car ride.
You love to sleep, be held, eat and love bath time. I love it when you are in the water and when you are in your little club, I call it club Z. Your grandma mari says it plays cumbias and you move your little hands hitting the little toys. You are smiling, giggling and starting to yell/talk when you are upset or excited. You hate when your beanies are hiding your vesion, you’re very alert and very strong. You held your little neck the first few days that you were born and haven’t struggled with it.
I love you papa, like I’m in love with you, I love smelling your baby breath, seeing you move around, smile, cry because I hear your lungs getting stronger. It’s hard to describe in words but I hope you feel the love that mommy and I have for you. We love you very much and hope to show you the world one day.
In current events the warriors are 12-0, Paris was attacked by a terrorist group, the Royals won the world series and the 49ers suck because of Jed York (FTP)

I guess that’s it for now Z. You’re waking up so I gotta get your bottle ready and get your diaper changed. BTW you are dropping some mean ones now.
I love you Z!

Daddy

Papa you can’t sleep!!! I wish you could but we had some visitors and we screwed up your schedule so now you’re crying and not going to sleep. Mommy and I don’t know what’s going on. I’m gonna go and warm you up a bottle and see if that helps. I’ll update you on the last few weeks or so Papa.

Love you,

Daddy

Hi Papa! On Friday August 21 you were released from the NICU and into your mommy and daddy’s care. It was a very emotional day for the both of us as you did everything that you needed to do and then some, you were released because you showed the NICU staff and us that you were ready to come home.

I was scared as I was driving with a newborn in the which had me driving like a old old man. We stopped by Father Beto to get you blessed and thank God for this tremendous blessing. It was crazy! Mommy and I just looked at one another and had a tear as we were introducing you to God and giving him thanks for your release and blessing that he has given us. On the way home from the church I made my first illegal turn with you in the car but I only did it because I wanted to get you home ASAP.

Your first night with us was kinda scary for us, mommy and daddy were a little scared but told one another that this is a team effort and we gotta hold it down for him and each other. We survived with a little bit of sleep but we did it!!! On Saturday I was on a mission to get photos of you because you are only going to be a new born for a short period of time. I got a phone call around 2:00pm saying that they would meet us at 4:00pm so mommy and daddy had a small window to get ready but we did. We were able to take our first family photo and then the rest was all about you! We got some pretty good pictures of you and we should be getting those in the next few weeks which we will send out announcing your arrival. BTW before I forget, your grandma Paula is crazy! She went out and got a new car just to come and see you but it’s all good, she needed it and i’m happy that she will have a reliable car to come and see you.

All and all Z right now you are doing good, you are eating every 3 hours or so and you wake up on time to eat. Right now you eat, sleep and poop on the daily! Dude, people be saying that you look like mommy but i’m like brehhhh have you not seen his eyes? He looks just like me and I laugh but hey if you look like your mommy then it’s all good 🙂

I’m out Z, I gotta get ready for work in the am and get my stuff together. I love you and you are loved by everyone. Ill post some pictures in the next few days! Stay strong and keep on growing and teaching me everyday.

Love Daddy!

Hi Z!

Today is Friday, yesterday you turned one week old and it was the first night that mommy and daddy stayed with you. We didn’t sleep as we were scared and nervous. Right now we are at the hospital with you waiting on weather or not we are taking you home today or within the next few days.
Mommy is doing great, she is getting your milk supply in and getting the hang of this mommy thing 🙂  We fight over who is going to feed you or whose turn it is to hold you. She loves you so much and it’s really crazy to see and feel the love that is all for you!
This week has been good overall, for me I went back to work which I kinda hated but I did it for you and mommy. I had a good week at work, I got some gifts and a lot of people asking about you which made me feel good.  I was also able to make it on time to see you, change you and feed you which made me happy. For me I am going to have to find a balance on taking care of business and myself. I wanna make sure I find an outlet to spend some “me” time or “mommy & daddy” time so we can be the best parents to you. It’s gonna be hard because you come first but you are worth everything.
At home things are good and starting to shape up, we have a bassinet for you, clean clothes that are freshly washed and a bunch of other things that I can’t think of right now. I got your car seat installed by a local fire department and you passed your car seat test so you’re doing great.
Other than that things are good papa, you are eating and pooping like you should be and doing better than anyone expected. You are strong and independent already and you are only 8 days old. We want to hold you as much as possible but we don’t want you to get used to us doing that so don’t be mad at us okay!!!!
I’m gonna go now but I will keep you posted on how mommy and daddy are doing if we take you home today.

Love you!

Daddy

I’m starting to get the hang of things, not really but at least that’s what I’m telling myself. I suck at waking up in the middle of the night! Mommy is doing good and I’m trying hard to wake up too but my eyes are heavy and are winning 75% of the time.
So far so good Z, you’re eating good,sleeping and going to the potty.
Nurses and doctors are very happy with you and think you are doing an excellent job.
Today we are getting discharged so we will take back a lot of gifts and bags that we have here. We are gonna board here for a day or a week depending on the space so we can be with you and watch you grow everyday.
I feed you this morning and you were sleepy sleepy which makes me sleepy too but when mommy is watching us maybe will take a nap together.
Okay Z I’ll be chilling and hanging out with mommy so will be chilling posting straight west coasting

Like Ice Cube said in the early 90’s today was a good day, actually these last few days have been amazing. I’ve had so many different types of emotions but today was different. Gabby and I are settling in our new roles as mommy and daddy, Gabby is doing amazing which is awesome to see. Today she had a change of clothes and is up and running literally. Feeding and changing diapers is becoming second nature to us (not really but we’re getting there)
Today I had my mom and dad your grandparents visit you which was awesome. My mom got to see your eyes and my dad meet his first grandson (grandchild) and it was special. I was able to see my dad hold you and all three of us were able to be together for the first time.
Z you are doing great with your feeding and diaper changes. Be good and keep getting bigger and stronger so you can come home to mommy and I

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Daddy

Z you got me, yesterday (Saturday) your mom and I got to feed you and change you. I was like please Z don’t give me the one that is gonna be dirty but you did. I got hit with a dirty diaper that didn’t smell but was dirty. I held my breath as the nurse walked me through every step and as soon as I got done I let out a huge gasp of air as I might have been holding my breath. We laughed as your mom had to change a pee pee diaper earlier.
You are doing great and so is your mommy , I did leave for a few hours as your mommy wanted some alone time with you and so she could sleep. I went to the local crossfit gym and got in my first baby wod. I felt weird as I was away from you both but I felt good being out
of the hospital. I showered and shaved and got ready just on time to make it to your next feeding.
Mommy and I are going to see you again and watch you get feed at 8am.

Love Daddy

Friday night lights have changed for me, instead of being out with your mommy or the guys I’m right here by your side. I wouldn’t have it any other way son! Being a new daddy to you has changed everything that I do, I feel calm, proud, connected and different as Rafa would say.
I can’t describe how I feel or how I think at this exact moment but I do think it has to do with timing, maturity and sense of responsibility to you. Mommy and I have worked very hard for you and that’s not gonna change, we are in love and at times speachless when we try and describe how we feel about you.
Right now you have a light on you to help with your red or white blood cells and got a little zorro mask on you to protect your little eyes. You don’t like the mask and are moving so much that the mask falls down and it covers your little baby face.
I hold your hand, rub your head and back and just look at you with amazement as you are my son.
The nurses are gonna feed you soon son so I wanna be focused on that so I will write to you tomorrow.

Daddy

This morning was different, instead of me getting up to get ready to go to work or go through my own routine I woke up and checked on my son Zebastian.
Being a new daddy is amazing, I have a little baby now who depends on my wife and I.
My wife is doing good, she hasn’t gotten much sleep but she is doing good. I feel bad because I crashed out last night and was just exhausted but that’s nothing to what she went through. I am so proud of her and can’t wait for her to be running around chasing after my little man.

Z you are loved by mommy and daddy so much! Keep getting strong and we will be taking you home soon.

Daddy