Hello Z and GG,

Today is I think the 30th and I just checked and it is. I slept with GG her first night and was useless. I slept almost the whole night and felt bad. The second night I slept with Zebastian who woke up around 3 with a bloody nose. Mommy stayed with you GG so she’s a trooper. Friday I woke up with Z made him his breakfast and did some stuff then came to the hospital. I fixed an I pad that I got for mommy 4 years ago I think that she lost when your brother was around 1 or so. We’ve been watching our shows on it to pass the time. Mommy is breastfeeding and pumping to get you milk and so far so good.

Right now it’s about 2am and I’ve been up for an hour or more so that mommy can rest but you all up on her literally won’t let her chill or sleep without you on her boobs. You’ve been a good baby so far and you are wearing premie diapers. You took a big dump on me well not on me but while I was changing you and I laughed because your brother did the same thing to me. I am feeling good and confident about you and about being a girl dad. I’ll be very honest I didn’t know if I could love anyone as much as I love your brother and I did want a boy so your brother could play sports with and when I found out you were a girl I was like oh shit I don’t know nothing about them. I still don’t know anything but I love being a girl dad and I do love you like no words can describe. I’m gonna do my best to be the best example that I can be as well as teach you to be independent.

Zebastian,

You’re the best! You my friend are a beautiful human being. You have so much love to give and want to be reunited with your family. I spent the night with you on Thursday and I knew you needed daddy since you were sad these last few days. We played dinosaurs your favorite and of course you won. We watched Bluey and it’s a cool cartoon because you said that’s our family since we are a family of four. Things are good papa and I can’t wait for you to meet your sister you are gonna be in love with her and I can’t wait for you to see your mommy again. You’re so little and Innocent and I’m in love with you since you’re my mini me. You and your sister look alike so it’s gonna be funny to see how she looks when she gets bigger but y’all are twins at this same stage when you were her age. My papa bear I love you!

Okay I’m out y’all I need to try and get some rest too but I’ll keep y’all posted!

Love you both,

Daddy

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